First Published 2nd September 2020 It’s been some time since I’ve written on here as I’d kind of made a silent pact with myself to at...

First Published 5th June 2020 So my 'year of firsts' finally draws to an end today and I naturally find myself reflecting on what has...

First Published 11th May 2020 A year ago today, Michael and I were celebrating life and togetherness at our engagement party. It actually...

First Published 31st March 2020 Going out. Seeing people. Opinions. Life around us. Nature. It all gives us an important sense of...

First Published 14th March 2020 In the many, many conversations I’ve had about mental health in the last nine months, one of the most...

First Published 19th February It’s been impossible to escape some emotional triggers this week as the desperately sad news of beautiful...

First Published 19th January 2020 A Bitter Sweet Day: Six years ago today my dad died. One year ago Michael proposed. Right here. Right...

First published 14th January 2020 When I reflect on the things people said to me or wrote after Michael died, one of the most ‘popular’ -...

So I think I’ve become pretty good at ’talking the talk’ so far, knowing the approach we ‘should‘ take, that I need to be kind to myself;...

As I stood waiting at the airport arrivals gate for my daughter the other day my heart warmed at the sight, and sheer delight, of family...

So less than a week to go until the big day! Not sure how that happened really. For me, the devastating grief of the past six months has...

It’s been a big week for Even Keel as it feels like we’ve now started lifting our heads above the parapet of social media and really...

It’s not easy to feel motivated to do much at all when the world has just come crashing down around you; grief savagely, almost greedily,...

As I opened my bedside drawer the other day I was struck by quite how many empty prescription packets I’d accumulated - evidence of quite...

I wrote a post about a week ago (‘learning to survive’) that pretty much laid my soul bare and shared the fragility of my mental health...

I don't remember much about those first few weeks but it was close to hell as I ever expected or wished to be..